The Transformation in My Life During My Second Year of High School
When I was a child, I was a very shy girl, who I rarely talked, and I afraid to talk in front of people. I didn’t have many close friends, and only a few of my classmates would play with me. It was just like I put myself in a room, a room that was in my own world. There was nothing in that room, the only thing was a locked door in the wall, which connected to the real world. I didn’t have courage to open that door and go outside to meet people in the real world, and also people could not come inside of my world due to my unsociable personality. Although I was shy and locked myself, deep down I always wanted to meet new people, make new friends, play and laugh with them. But it all changed in my second year of high school.
At that time, my high school had a program called broadcasting and hosting arts. Students can attend this program for free to study broadcasting and hosting skill. Moreover, students in this program had duty on all kinds of activities and ceremonies. They had responsibility to compere a ceremony. I have been locked in my room for so many years, so I never imagined that some day I would be a hostess or an anchor talk in front of people. Fortunately, my teacher and parents wanted to help me and save me from the room, so they encouraged me to attend that program, hoping that I would learn something from the study, and open the door and walk out from the room of my world. Under their push, I agreed to attend the program.
At the beginning of the study, my performance in that class was really bad, because I must talk a lot in front of people. Every day, I had to do a lot of cadenced and sentimental recitations. I hated it so much, and even didn’t want to go that class, because I could not open myself, I was not able to put any emotion in the recitation. When I was speaking or presenting something in front of the class, I was very nervous. My face would turn red, and my heart would pumps very fast. It was acting like my heart was jumping out of my mouth. This kind of feeling made me sick.
One day, I had an embarrassing presentation. The reason I called it embarrassing presentation was I forgot my words that I had practiced over and over again in the mirror. During that presentation I was just standing there with a red embarrassing face, and have no idea what should I do next. At that time, I felt so helpless. I hope I could dig a hole and hide in it. I wanted to run away, but at that time my body was stiff. I also cannot control my voice, it was like someone was chocking my neck, and letting me cannot say any works. When I was standing there, I already expected all of my classmates were going to laugh at me, and I think I’d better stay in my room and never went out. Surprisingly, the laughing didn’t come out, all of them were encouraging me and comforting me. “It’s ok, don’t be nervous. Don’t stressed out, clam down yourself.” They were sitting there and saying. Under their help and encouragement, I was trying to calm down myself. Finally, I took a deep breath and found my words back.
It was a terrible presentation, but I remembered it, and would never forget it. That presentation let me understand, I was not fighting alone; I had a lot of classmates wanted to help me, and improve me. The encouragement and warming they gave to me was like a key – a key to open my door. The door that locked me and stopped me to go to the real world to meet people.
As time goes by, I found that everyone in that program was very lovely and talkative. They liked to talk and play with me. When I have problem with my speech and recitation, all of them will help me and teach me to overcome my problem, which made me feel so good. I admired them. I think their life was more brilliant than mine. I told myself I must change and must be a part of them. Their passion affected me, and changed me. Because of them I opened myself little by little. I have started feeling the class was very interesting, I grew more confident when I was speaking in front of people; I have started talking to people on my own initiative. Along with the development of myself, I found I have more friends than I thought. More and more people came to talk with me, and I was happier than before. I knew that locked door in the room of my own world was unlocked. I was able to walk out and communicate with people.
I can still remember my first ceremony as a hostess. I did a great job on that hosting, although at beginning I still felt a little nervous. It was ineffably, when my teacher commended me at the class. She said she was so pride of me, and hoped all of my classmates could learn from me. That ceremony let me know that I was totally walked out of my room. I have been changed successfully; I was not that shy girl any more. Now, I can proudly say that I can speak in public and not afraid any more; I am able to meet strangers and talk to them without shyness. I have many friends and my life is brilliant, as brilliant as those classmates who I admired before.
