Experience

Going to college is a whole knew experience, and it can be scary to some freshman. Going to college can be a great experience or it can not be a great experience it all depends on yourself. Going to college may mean bad eating habits, or there may be a high level of stress. Going to college may mean that it is the first time to be away from home all on your own. There are many aspects of being a freshman in college, and One aspect that every freshman at a university experiences is living on their own for the first time.

Making the transition from high school to college can be a tough one.
I remember my experience in such a transition vividly, as it was only a short time ago. I have to leave My family,familiar things, home, and friends . It is hard for me, I ever feeling homesick When i moved away to university for the first time, I feel so sad and lonely , think about people at home all the time,I want to go home every weekend, and just feel generally depressed. It is very painful experience I have to adapt in new environment, and friends.

However, I try to deal with my homesickness. I always stay positive and focus on my purpose to study abroad. I keep busy with positive activities For example Iam joining organisations in my campus,Joining UKM and being a volunteer in any events , I spend my time with positive activities, it can not make me feel lonely anymore, because I have a lot of to do everyday, Besides that I try to make a new friends, expand my relations, and enjoy the day.

When i studied far from home i to be more independent , cause before I moved away from home my mother did all things. But, now I have to learn how to do all things by myself. Such as managing my money, cooking by myself, doing washing clothes by myself. Etc, I get a lot of benefit from being away from home.

On the other hand, the different in High School and college is In high school the teacher would constantly remind the students when certain assignments were due, but this was not the case in college. So, I have to manage my time and do my assignement on time, if i late to collect it, Iwill not get the score. life in college is more complicated than in high school, especially in terms of course composition, everyday learning, and free time. When i feel tired of college life i will stop for awhile and refresh my mind with go to cinema to watch movie cause my hobby is watching movies.

The transition from high school to university is the stage that all students must face at some stage in their lives. Due to the difference between high school students and university students, change has brought countless challenges. Even though it was difficult for me to be away from home, but I tried my best to face my life as a student away from my parents.

Language is used by all people in many different ways. Whether it be spoken language or actions and gestures, language is an effective way to convey people’s thoughts and feelings. Oftentimes, language is used to form feelings of emotion between individuals. Emotions in people are constantly changing and language plays a huge role in that. In Love 2.0: How Our Supreme Emotion Affects Everything We Feel, Think, Do, and Become, Barbara Fredrickson touches on the idea of language helping to shape emotions through the neural coupling and positivity resonance that can occur when two people interact with one another. In addition, in “The Mega-Marketing of Depression in Japan,” Ethan Watters discusses how pharmaceutical companies such as GlaxoSmithKline used language to redefine the meaning of depression in order to market the disease in Japan and sell antidepressants to people living in Japan. Both authors focus on the importance of language and the affect it can have on people’s emotions.

Language and its factors can serve as a vessel with which people can perceive, control, and understand their emotions. One reason that language shapes the experience of emotion is that language alters how the emotions we feel are perceived. Different forms of communication trigger various emotions within people and affect how they feel. For example, someone speaking negatively and making rude and disrespectful remarks will cause feelings of sadness and hurt within the person. On the other hand, according to Barbara Fredrickson, a feeling of love can occur even when having a brief conversation with a complete stranger (111).

The neural coupling that occurs between the two people allows them to form a bond, and it can only be made possible by the language and communication used in the conversation. Without language, the emotion of love would not be possible. In addition, it is believed that “communication—a true meeting of the minds—is a single act, performed by two brains” (Fredrickson 112). When two people communicate, their brains sync together and the emotions they feel are shared with each other. They both understand each other and truly capture the emotion through the language spoken within the conversation. The way emotions are perceived is also vital when dealing with language as a means of translation. The languages spoken can often translate slightly differently, which in turn alters the perceived emotions about the words or phrases.

In Japan, the medical term for depression was for a long time referred to as “utsubyo … an incurable and inborn depression of psychotic proportions” (Watters 524). In the United States, taking antidepressants in hopes of alleviating the effects of depression is extremely common, particularly because the word depression has no truly negative connotation to it. However, in Japan, people would refuse to accept that they had depression and think extremely negatively about the condition. This thinking was due in large part to the language difference, as people did not want to be diagnosed with a condition that seemed so severe to them.

In order to combat this language barrier, pharmaceutical companies marketed depression as “a cold of the soul” (Watters 524). By adjusting the language associated with depression, the pharmaceutical companies were able to change the Japanese people’s emotions about depression, making them more likely to then go out and purchase antidepressants to help cure them of their condition. The idea that depression was like a cold altered the predetermined emotions that the Japanese had about the disease. Because language can alter the way in which people perceive their emotions, it shapes the experience of it as well.

While language can alter how people perceive emotions, the words and actions of people also play a large part in controlling a person’s feelings and emotions. Emotions are not something that are generally expressed when people are by themselves, but rather influenced heavily on the environment and things going on around them. Fredrickson states that “under the influence of oxytocin … your skills for forging connections sharpen, which increases your ability to cultivate positivity resonance” (120). Because a person’s ability to communicate and bond with another is improved, they can feel a sense of love and positivity resonance for the other person.

This could not be possible if the words of others did not play an integral role in the formation of a person’s feelings. The positivity resonance felt between two individuals is an emotion that is controlled by the language the two people are speaking. In addition, as Fredrickson makes evident with the airport scenario, when in an intriguing conversation with another person, “you hung on her every word … you both enjoyed the chance to connect, rather than read, while you waited for your plane together” (111). During this encounter, the emotions felt were connected with those of the college student involved in the conversation.

However, it was her words and her story that controlled the emotions and the direction of the dialogue. In the case of the pharmaceutical companies in Japan, at first the Japanese people who had been introduced to a new word for depression were still hesitant to take antidepressants. This was the case because it was equated to a cold by pharmaceutical companies; oftentimes when a person has a cold, he or she simply waits it out until it goes away, which is what the Japanese were doing with depression. In response to the lack of care given to the disease, pharmaceutical companies countered that by pointing to increased suicide rates among those who suffered from depression in order to convince the people of Japan that the medicine for depression was necessary (Watters 526).

Because of the actions taken by the drug companies, the perception of depression was once again altered in the eyes of the Japanese. They no longer saw it as the cold it was originally compared to, but as something that needed to be treated for it go away. The way people communicate through their language and their actions plays a major role in controlling the emotions of others. In addition to altering the perception of emotions as well as controlling the emotions of others, language can be shown to shape the experience of emotion because it allows people to truly understand and comprehend the emotions they are feeling.

Without some form of language, people would likely either fail to show any emotion altogether or be unaware of why they are experiencing certain emotions. This can be seen when two people actively engaged in a conversation begin to experience positivity resonance along with a sense of neural coupling. Usually, “when you and another truly connect, love reverberates between you. In the very moment that you experience positivity resonance, your brain syncs up with the other person’s brain” (Fredrickson 110). Through the language and communication shared with others, people can understand the emotion of love that they feel within themselves.

Not only do they simply feel the emotion, they also can truly comprehend through the language shared how and why they feel the way they do. Fredrickson also claims that “by sharing a smile, a laugh, a common passion, or an engaging story-you become attuned, with genuine care and concern for the other” (113). Even something as simple as a shared smile can lead to neural coupling within the brain and positive emotions of love. This unspoken language helps see emotion in a new light, as the happiness and care felt towards another can be realized by a simple shared smile or laugh, and it can thus lead to a plethora of new emotions within the body.

These new emotions can only be understood through the language spoken and used within conversation. In addition, as Watters writes, the original definition of depression in Japan was described as “a mental illness that was as chronic and devastating as schizophrenia” (516). Because of the difference in language translation, the emotions the Japanese felt about depression were far different from what people in the United States thought about it. They understood the disease differently based on the language and as a result had much more negative emotions towards depression. Additionally, when both Americans and Japanese people were asked about the words they connected with depression, the results were extremely contrasting. Native Japanese people looked outward and away from their bodies to describe it, while Americans used words that corresponded to internal feelings (Watters 521-22). The differences in translation from Japanese to English lead to different perspectives on the same word or phrase.

One of the most important occasions to the students is to finally graduate and receive the diploma that they worked so hard to accomplish. Many will only wish to finish his Western or English Education. They did not give importance to their Arabic Education. Arabic Education is also important to me. I consider my graduation as the most to me. Beside the fact that I was going to receive my diploma on that day, it was also the day that was full of surprises. But there is a certain obstacle to this event. I was supposed to attend a very important activity in my humanities class.

Thankfully my professor allowed me not to do the activity. Graduating from a certain level is once in a lifetime experience as well. She told me that it will serve as her gift and class gift. But for her to congratulates me inside the class is a very wonderful gift — in fact, all my classmates greeted me as well. Surprisingly, that was my first gift and it was so wonderful. On the day of my graduation day, I really did not want to celebrate. A simple lunch with my family was enough. The money that my father earns is so important and celebrating is just a waste of money. I even cried at him to not celebrate.

I rode a motorcycle there since Madrasah was not that far away from our home. No one accompanied me, and I was a little bit depressed at that time. But in the middle of the ceremonies my family arrived, and it was enough for me. I did not take pictures since I am not that photogenic. When I got home, the tears would not stop from rolling in my eyes. They prepared a celebration for me. I was so ashamed for my visitors to see me crying. My father’s gift all along was a celebration. I was also so thankful that my relatives did not forget this day. For them to come was very reassuring that I am important to them as well. My family is really the best. Before I finish, I want to tell all of you that studying both educations is not hard if determination is on your side. Learning both educations is fun! It is not too late for you try it. Madrasah will teach you all about your religion, so try studying Arabic education to become more aware.

This film did not only entertain audiences, rather, whether they knew it or not, educated them on many Psychological ideas and concepts. I personally started to notice some of the mentioned ideas, especially since emotions describe each character within. These basic principles may appear miniscule to adults; however, these are children aged movies.

Therefore, for younger audiences, these emotions can help them express themselves. Parents can use such devices to help children describe moods such as sad or happy, it is understood that certainly more emotions arise in life. By teaching children about Psychology, they can better understand themselves and their thinking patterns alike. This short film also encouraged me to also learn more about the applied Psychological concepts. Through such analyzations, I have concluded that emotions are somewhat dependent on others around us. One aspect this movie that related to Erik Erikson’s stages of Social-Emotional development.

This is shown through emotional development within the film. This acted as the key plotline of the movie. In the beginning, it is taught that only one emotion can be felt at any given time. However, malfunction towards the end enable many different emotions to strike the character at any given time. To me this showcased the reality of life. When one is young, like the intended audience, their emotions are yet to be complicated. However, once adulthood (the future) unfolds, many stressful and confusing feelings can overwhelm one simultaneously. Just as Erikson showed through his stages, emotions are a staged process in life. Children must understand themselves emotionally whenever possible (Moore,2015).

The next Psychological concept of the formation and process of memories. Although, certainly simplified significantly, this movie discovered a great mechanism to teaching children about such ideas. It described ideas of long and short-term memory. Which is generally not common in Disney movies. We literally learn that shortly after awakening from sleep, are long term memories are already disconsolate. Also, this movie showed ideas that memories can negatively affect one’s life. Even after sadness touched a memory with joy, it remained sad. A lot of useful information was touched upon by these themes throughout the Disney film (Moore,2015).

The last idea I would like to explain was how the information somewhat contradictive to emerging ideas in Psychology. According to Baines: “Inside Out suggests that a child’s experiences are defined by whichever emotion is strongest and that a child’s overall personality has an emotional driver. For the first half of the film, Riley is a happy child because Joy is the captain. Puschak warns that this model stands in direct opposition to many key insights of psychoanalysis which suggest that emotions can be transferred, transformed, or distorted expressions of unconscious ideas or repressed experiences (Baines, 2015).

Although children cannot comprehend such details yet, adults can reflect on their own experiences and ideas of such topics. This movie was exciting to watch and helped enforced many Psychological principles and discussions to arise. These three examples are not the only ones provided within the movie, however, the ones that surfaced to me first. Initially, I was not aware that I was even thinking about such ideas, although it is highly inevitable. Personally, I feel better equipped to understanding how emotions and cognition work after watching this. We should take care of our minds just as much, if not more than our physical bodies.

On the surface Grendel a novel written by John Gardner can be considered nothing but a written perspective of the monster who was defeated by Beowulf. But with a closer look many can see how this novel is packed with symbolism, philosophy, and belief. Many of us know the tale of Beowulf, it is an old epic poem that survived damage from a fire in 1731, it is known as one of the most important works of old English literature. John Gardner took this story, flipped it, and created the novel Grendel. On the surface Grendel can be considered nothing but a written perspective of the monster who was defeated in Beowulf.

But with a closer look many can see how this novel is packed with symbolism, philosophy, existence, and belief. John Gardner was born in New York on July 21st 1933 to John Champlin and Priscilla Gardner. When Gardner was eleven years old he was driving a tractor back to his family’s farm with his brother and sister. On the way home the tractor ran out of gas on a slope and launched young Gardner’s brother, Gilbert forward, crushing him under steel rollers that weighed over a ton. This haunted Gardner in configurations of nightmares and flashbacks of his brother’s death. According to Washington’s Post Between the Lines Gardner said that at a breaking point in the event, Gardner had to make a decision of either reaching for the brakes and leaving his brother paralyzed or just letting him die entirely.

Many critics imply that this gruesome event inspired Gardner’s writings, especially one of his novels Stillness and Shadows which was published in 1986. According to the Paris Review, John Gardner entered the world of literature with quite an impact. His first four novels, “The Resurrection (1966), The Wreckage of Agathon (1970), Grendel (1971), and The Sunlight Dialogue (1972) gave critics and readers an exhilarating and fresh feeling, it was a completely different style compared to modern writing that was presented at the time. But what was Gardner trying to accomplish with Grendel? The Twelve Traps in John Gardner’s Grendel presents an interview between Joe David Bellamy and Gardner himself. When Joe asked Gardner his intentions with Grendel, Gardner states “In Grendel, I wanted to go through the main ideas of Western Civilization – which seemed to me about…twelve? – and go through them in a voice of a monster with the story already taken care of, with various philosophical attitudes and see what I could do, see if I could break out. That’s what I wanted to do.”

And this, I believe Gardner accomplished. But where did the basis of Grendel come from? Several critics, myself included, believe Grendel harbored from Gardner’s own thoughts, in On becoming a novelist by John Gardner he writes “I was conscious that what I was about to do (or dramatize, or seek to get clear) was an annoying sometimes painful disharmony in my own mental experience, a conflict between a wish for certainty, a sort of timid and legalistic rationality on one hand, and, on the other, an inclination toward childish optimism, what I might now describe as an occasional flickering affirmation of all that was best in my early experience of Christianity.” Reading this we can obviously tell how Grendel was created through the inner thoughts of John Gardner. There were several reoccurring themes throughout this novel such as purpose, consciousness, existence, the power of words, pain, suffering, men as monsters and good vs. evil. Grendel is on what seems to be an endless quest to find out who and what he is, as well as why and where he belongs.

Grendel’s undying obsession to find this out blocks out any other possible suggestions. An old and wise being, the dragon tried to guide him and yet Grendel stays stubborn and somehow tries to alter what the dragon tells him is his reality, he continues to search without consideration of the Dragon’s words or anybody’s words for that matter. From a child, Grendel creates and revolves his world around one theory, as Grendel claims “I understood that the world was nothing; a mechanical chaos of casual, brute enmity on which we stupidly impose our hopes and fears.

I understood that, finally and absolutely, I alone exist. All the rest, I saw, is merely what pushes me, or what I push against, blindly—as blindly as all that is not myself pushes back. I create the whole universe blink by blink.. (22)”, In other words, solipsism. Gardner isolates Grendel and it makes us readers think, who are we? What is our purpose in our life? Consciousness, existence and purpose follows and even in a sense torments Grendel throughout the entire novel. The power of words, another constant theme throughout the novel. Grendel can be compared to a lost little boy in the woods with no direction. Grendel seeks purpose and meaning in the world, he wants someone to understand, appreciate him and give him some type of warmth. Grendel wanders through the woods of his life curious and easily influenced, words impact him greatly.

The shaper takes Danish myths and writes history, twisting information as he pleases. The shaper plays the harp of life being completely filled with righteousness giving the Danes a sense of purpose and meaning to their lives. “My heart was light with Hrothgar’s goodness, and leaden with grief at my own bloodthirsty ways. I backed away, crablike, further into the darkness—like a crab retreating in pain when you strike two stones at the mouth of his underwater den. I backed away till the honeysweet lure of the harp no longer mocked me. Yet even now my mind was tormented by images. (48)”

Grendel is desperate to believe the shapers words, he knows that they’re lies but the art the shaper creates is tempting and seduces Grendel. Grendel is frantic to make sense of his own existence, throughout the novel he is hopelessly piecing his identity together, grabbing at whatever is available, sewing it together and trying to come to a conclusion, this makes the Shaper dangerous to Grendel’s psyche. The Shaper promotes humans and how amazing they are, in the process putting Grendel down and ultimately twisting the perspective of the Danes to dislike and fear him. Pain, suffering and loneliness is a constant in not only Grendel but the universe of this novel as well. Grendel cannot communicate with anyone, he only has his thoughts to keep him sane, which we can all agree can lead to overthinking and can become dangerous at times. “And so begins the twelfth year of my idiotic war.

The pain of it! The stupidity! (5)” Grendel is a monster and an outcast, he is completely isolated from society in which he is forced to play the “villain”. Men as monsters and good vs. evil is a very interesting theme presented in this novel. Gardner takes our understanding of good and evil and changes it entirely, the concept of good conquering evil is flipped. Perhaps the monster in this story has more morals than humans themselves. “All the bands did the same thing. In time I began to be more amused than revolted by what they threatened. It didn’t matter to me what they did to each other. It was slightly ominous because of its strangeness-no wolf was so vicious to other wolves-but I half believed they weren’t serious. (32)”

In this novel humans are unbelievably cruel, even to themselves. Even to a monster, humans are absolutely terrifying. Grendel made a clever observation, Humans are powerful, they create ideas and carry them through, but instead of using those abilities for the greater good they use it to kill, hurt and take advantage of the ground they live on. In this novel, it’s difficult to tell who the real monster is. Motifs are like themes, but are far more constant. One motif is found from beginning to end in this novel. Grendel is made up of twelve chapters which correspond to the twelve zodiac signs.

The first chapter is Aries, Aries are represented by a ram which Grendel happens to encounter in the beginning of the novel. Aries are well known for being naïve, impulsive, and primitive, in this part of the story, young Grendel possessed all these traits. The second chapter, Taurus, the bull, this animal actually ended up attacking Grendel. The Zodiac sign Taurus is known for being loyal, this could express Grendel’s remaining loyalty to his mother. Chapter three is next, Gemini. Gemini’s minds are in constant war with each other, this could equate to the mind of Grendel once the shaper’s stories begin to affect him.

Chapter four is Cancer, which is represented by the crab. Once Grendel hears the words of the Shaper he backs away “like a crab retreating in pain”. Leo is chapter five and can refer to the dragon who surrounds himself with treasures and gold, the stone and color for this zodiac sign is also gold. Virgo is chapter six, which is represented by Unferth’s and Grendel’s encounter with him. As Grendel states “So much for the harvest virgin.” Chapter seven is the Libra, the sign of balance and ease, this chapter definitely belongs to Wealtheow. Chapter eight, the Scorpio, the zodiac sign that is known for being extremely territorial and self-centered. Hrothulf is introduced in chapter eight and wants the throne to himself, what better character to serve this chapter? Chapter nine, the Sagittarius, which represents a centaur, half-human and half-horse, with a bow and arrow. The fascinating thing about centaurs is that they’re made from two different natures, they both coexist.

This fact is similar to how the priests are contradictions to themselves, they preach something that they don’t believe in, giving faith to fellow Danes while at the same time knowing that such hope is false. The pessimistic Capricorn is chapter ten, goats correspond to this zodiac sign. In this part of the novel, Grendel happens to encounter a goat as well. This zodiac sign can also refer to Grendel’s encounter with nihilism on his philosophical journey. Chapter eleven is the Aquarius, the well-known water-bearer. People who bear this zodiac sign are well known for showing much interest in life’s mysteries.

Grendel’s “Aquarius” tinted philosophical quest is coming to an end. The end of the novel, chapter twelve brings Pisces, the fish, another double sided zodiac sign. Beowulf embodies this zodiac sign and finally kills of Grendel with his “Pisces” like-will to wipe out any conflict faced. Grendel has been destroyed by Beowulf, his absolute opposite. Grendel can be seen as a novel of endless competing notions. Each character tries to make sense of the world in their own way. These characters are symbolic and represent different philosophies throughout the novel.

Grendel is on a self-discovering journey to find out what he believes in, but being a monster who is easily influenced makes this expedition difficult. In chapter five, Grendel meets a dragon in a cave who lays on top of gold. Grendel is in complete awe of the dragon who is huge and frightening, the dragon ends up making an ironic comment saying that now Grendel knows how the humans felt when they saw him. The dragon is definitely a symbol for nihilism. To the dragon the world is meaningless, he says “My advice to you my violent friend, is to seek out gold and sit on it.” (74) The dragon sees no point in religion, poetry or anything that man has created in order to make the world seem more significant and fulfilling. When Grendel asks about the Shaper, the dragon claims that the shaper creates illusions to give hope to the Danes.

Grendel wants to find meaning and questions the dragon in hopes of there being answers with more purpose, but the dragon refuses to let Grendel be so naive. Grendel is tired of the cards he has been dealt with and continues to question the dragon, Grendel asks “Why shouldn’t one change one’s ways, to improve one’s character?” But the Dragon says “You improve them, my boy! Can’t you see that yourself? You stimulate them! You make them think and scheme. You drive them to poetry, science and religion, all that makes them what they are as long as they last. You are, so to speak, the brute existent by which they learn to define themselves.

The exile, captivity, death they shrink from—the blunt facts of their mortality, their abandonment—that’s what you make them recognize, embrace! You are mankind, or man’s condition: inseparable as the mountain-climber and the mountain. If you withdraw, you’ll instantly be replaced. Brute existents, you know, are a dime a dozen.” (72-73) As much as the dragon preaches that the world is meaningless, to a certain degree, he was giving Grendel meaning. Instead of pushing Grendel to change his ways, he pushes him to embrace his inner monster. He sheds a positive light on Grendel’s reality. Grendel is a monster and what is the fate of a monster necessarily? “Why bother changing your destiny? If everything is meaningless anyways” This is the exact thought process of the dragon. The dragon lingers throughout Grendel’s head for the rest of the novel, some say that the dragon could possibly be an external presence of Grendel’s mindset.

The Shaper re-writes history as he pleases. Although he doesn’t necessarily represent a philosophy, he is symbolic for pure illusion. As I’ve mentioned before the shaper sings songs that give the Danes a transcendent and mystical meaning to their lives, making them feel as if they are a part of something much greater. But the shaper overdoes it and twists reality at times, most of what he sings are just lies. Beowulf is never clearly named in the novel, but by reading the context we can make a strong assumption. Beowulf is symbolic for existentialism and perhaps a step towards a new philosophy.

“As you see it, it is, while the seeing lasts, dark nightmare-history, time-as-coffin; but where the water was rigid there will be fish, and men will survive on their flesh till spring… though you murder the world, turn plains to stone, transmogrify life in to I and it, strong searching roots with crack your cave and rain will cleanse it; the world will burn green, sperm build again. My promise.” Beowulf tells Grendel whether you fantasize to make more meaning of the world like the Shaper or sneer at life like the dragon, it is meaningless because life goes on. The dragon sees humans as so insignificant to this vast world, while Beowulf believes the complete opposite. The world doesn’t even exist without men according to Beowulf, he sees humans as gods, in which they fabricate the world as they see fit. Beowulf’s notion can be a new evolution of philosophy. The dragon constantly pushes Grendel toward a lucid and cruel intellectualism.

While the Shaper entices Grendel’s mind away to more abstract thoughts of love, beauty, and false misconceptions. Beowulf shrugs and pretty much says that whichever side you’re on, it doesn’t matter, the only way to counter this nothingness is by finding meaning in life and embracing one’s existence. Gardner created a true masterpiece, a novel that makes us question ourselves and the world around us. Do I have a philosophy? What am I looking for in life? What is my definition of monstrous or evil? If one has ever wondered about their purpose or place in the universe then this novel can be easy to relate to. Gardner created a book that has it all, he tackles issues that Beowulf couldn’t put forward clearly while giving us options. Is there perhaps a Grendel somewhere within all of us? Only a fool would say that this novel doesn’t carry a greater meaning. With all its allegories, philosophies, and themes, the novel Grendel is anything but a dragon’s idea of meaningless.

An exploration of these possibilities hopefully shall veal which meaning, If not all of them, Forester Intended the Marimba Caves to possess. On a metaphysical level, the Caves can be seen as a representation of the subconscious. By entering the caves one penetrates the dark, cavernous realm of one’s own psyche. Several characters experience a revelation within their walls. Mrs.. Moor’s revelation is that of immense hopelessness. Her experience in the cave creates a sense of chaos and the sense that despite what is said or known in the world, It Is all essentially meaningless.

The echo she hears reinforces this revelation to her. The scary resounding “boom” reduces every individual sound or voice to a continuous and indistinct noise (Forester 163). She meditates that the sound, “had managed to murmur ‘Pathos, piety, courage-they exist, but are identical, and so is filth. Everything exists, nothing has value. ‘ If one had spoken vileness in that place, or quoted lofty poetry, the comment would have been the same-‘oh-boom” (165). It is here she realizes the whole of human history has sounded Just Like this and that her existence makes no Impression upon it at all.

That no matter what Is done and said It s all in the end meaningless. For her, the caves symbolize the antiquity of existence and she has been reduced to being another nonsensical blurb in the annals of time. When she emerges from the cave, Adele asks Mrs.. Moore if she saw the reflection of a match, calling it pretty. Mrs.. Moore claims to have forgotten, but ultimately the only thing she saw In the cave was a reflection of her fears. For the young Adele, the caves Invoke a different revelation.

Perhaps their enormity and sense of removal from the world make her meditate on the decision she Is going to make to marry Irony. Looking upon the rock formations as if ripples in her own mind, she is reminded of her relationship with Irony and asks, “What about love? ” (168). Within these walls, she realizes that she is about to marry a man she does not love and ultimately by traversing the corridors of her own mind, she reaches a sense of inner awareness. Adele has a sudden epiphany In the caves and “vexed, rather than appalled, she stood still, her eyes on the sparkling rock” (168).

Perhaps this sparkling rock that Adele focuses on represents a light that has been turned on inside of her. However, unlike Mrs.. Moore who is reduced to an irritable depression, Adele has what appears be a mental breakdown. She has made a decision to escape the confines of societal pressures and not marry Irony. This knowledge provokes such a state in her that she seems to be in a trance, unaware of the hysteria surrounding her until her Inner echo stops during the trial. After renouncing all charges against Aziza; Adele confides Tanat parlor to near cave explosion, sense experienced “a sort AT sadness. . Tanat I could not detect at the time… No, nothing as solid as sadness: living at half pressure expresses it best. Half pressure” (266). Inside the caves is where she recognizes that so far she was not living her life “full steam”. Perhaps this revelation at a life led devoid of true experiences and satisfaction caused her possible “hallucination”. Up until this point in her life, she had seen life in only one direction; now there were many. In court, she conjures up this multi-directional view; describing it as a “double relation” (253).

She tries to recount the day at the caves and questions herself as to why she did not enjoy what was around her initially. Looking back she realizes that it was “all dutiful and significant, though she had been blind to it at the time” (253). For both women the entrance into the caves is like an entrance into their own mind. They derive a new sense of knowledge within the hollowed walls and emerge with an echo- a “boom” that haunts them; an echo that may be the resounding hum of their own subconscious (168). This haunting echo for Mrs..

Moore serves as a reminder of her own insignificance and mortality; while for Adele the echo chips away at her, revealing that perhaps she is uncomfortable with her new self-awareness until she can properly interpret it. However, she will need time to do this, remarking that “the vision disappeared whenever she wished to interpret it” (267). One can only speculate on Dale’s revelation and her supposed “insult”. In the end she loses interest in who could have insulted her in the cave; because ultimately she encountered someone much more important in those walls, herself.

Essentially, Adele grapples with three different issues: the “concept of her own Brutishness crumbles, as the very essence of her identity alters, [and] her disenfranchisement in Anglo-India 56). Her first step of assertion is by renouncing her accusations against Aziza. By disentangling herself from the British and their need to scapegoat him she has effectively removed herself from the Anglo-Indian system and become her own woman. In a more literal fashion the caves can be seen as momentary freedom from the constraints of each individual’s society; Moslem, Hindu, and Anglo-Indian all converge here.

The Marimba Cave setting is a less formal affair then the “bridge party’ and serves as a removal from the country club and mosques that separate them. However, this confluence of cultures has disastrous results for the main characters. The initial entrance into the caves is described as absolute chaos by Mrs.. Moore. Inside there is no light and no distinctions can be made between people. She describes the caves as being, “Crammed with villagers and servants… She lost Adele and Aziza in the dark, didn’t know who touched her, couldn’t breathe, and some vile naked thing struck her face and settled on her like a pad” (Forester 162).

Here she suffers a panic attack at what is essentially a removal of the rigid hierarchies she is accustomed to. She is disgusted and threatened by the vile naked pad which slaps her and then turns out to simply be a baby. It is because she cannot see and categorize what is around her that she “went mad, hitting and gasping like a fanatic” (162). It is too much chaos for her and the scene unleashes her instinctual, primitive reaction; far from the decorum she may have though herself to possess. Despite her kindness and “orientation”, Mrs.. Moore is as reliant on a structured system as any AT near countrymen .

I Nils scans AT Matrimonial TTY amongst cultures continues when Adele and Aziza enter the next cave. The reader is never informed of what really happens within the cave due to the narrative being from Jazz’s respective. However, Dale’s supposed insult resulting from Jazz’s advances creates outrageous turmoil. It is rooted in the problem that they- a Moslem Indian and a British woman- are alone in such an environment. The insinuation here is that by lowering their guards both parties have suffered. If Adele was in fact insulted, then it was a result of being so familiar with an Indian man.

However, if Aziza was innocent the problem was essentially still a result of taking the chance of having too much freedom around a British woman. This reprieve from town and cultural boundaries as shown that distrust and miscommunication are embedded within these groups. Essentially, by showing the havoc that ensues from being at the caves far away from societal restrictions, Forester is showing that perhaps there is a necessity for a separation of cultures when such misunderstanding and distrust exists. There will never entirely be hope for a healthy convergence of cultures if such elements of suspicion linger.

The ideas of freedom and the subconscious that the caves inspire may only help to compound the element of mystery they possess. Monk notes that, The Marimba Caves have a corrosive, annihilating effect on those who are susceptible to their power, and they become the central mystery of “mysterious India” in Forester’s Passage thereto”. The caves are both a representation of mystery and the source of it. It is within their confines that Adele is “insulted”; yet the reader never really knows what happened if anything did happen at all.

The mystic trance they seem to infuse their visitors with can be seen as reflective of the mystery of Eastern spirituality to western eyes. The east possesses a culture so different from the English; that it is resented as an enigma to them that can never be solved. McCauley remarks that, “Everything Indian is haloed in mystery; the caves, the landscape, even the bird that the English see in a tree and cannot identify, for “nothing in India is identifiable, the mere asking of a question causes it to disappear and to merge in something else” (201).

The Marimba caves carry an enigmatic power. Forester comments that this power lies in their defiance of time and meaning, stating that “Nothing is inside them, they were sealed up before the creation of pestilence or treasure; if mankind grew Uris’s and excavated, nothing, nothing would be added to the sum of good or evil” (Forester 119). Marimba caves may also serve as another example of the need to determine mystery from muddle. Earlier in the novel, a conversation is posed concerning the difference between the terms.

Adele generally admits to abhorring mysteries, while Fielding chimes in agreement that “We English do” (73). However, it is Mrs.. Moore who makes the distinction between liking a mystery and disliking a muddle. The conversation ends with the question as to if India is a muddle. If India is a muddle, or not; what then would the caves be? Perhaps if the definition of the caves can be determined, then one could unlock the answer to whether India is a muddle or mystery. The difference between the terms mystery and muddle are never clearly defined in the novel.

However, a mystery by definition generally has an answer at the end. The implication of the word muddle is that there is no answer and randomness exists. If one examines the caves and the events within them, perhaps muddle could be the more appropriate description. Mrs.. Moore certainly described chaos, and the mystery AT Dale’s Insult Is never solved. In ten caves scans ensues Ana no solutions are offered. This would indicate muddle. If the caves are muddle and reflect the real India; is India, therefore, a muddle or a mystery? Fielding seems to think “Indian’s a muddle” (73).

However, if India is a muddle than the implications of this could be boundless. For if this one country and culture is summed up as a muddle, could not the same opinion be made about most other places and people? Is mankind’s existence random, chaotic, and essentially devoid of any real answers? These questions sound undoubtedly like what Mrs.. Moore was asking herself outside of the Marimba caves. She drew a linear relationship between the nothingness of the caves and her own existence; indicating the same connection between these elements.

Perhaps Forester’s caves serve the purpose of showing that everything is essentially muddled. This muddle or mystery, subconscious, and freedom are all to be found with the Forester’s Marimba Caves. Each character upon entering them emerges with their own definition of their meaning. Mrs.. Moore and Adele both approached the caves as if taking a walk within the confines of their own psyches, each discovering their worries and their fears. Aziza found himself victim to the caves and the mystery that happened within them.

In addition, all of these characters experienced the ramifications and revelations that arise when one is free from societal observation. The question was posed of whether the caves represented freedom, the subconscious, or the mystery of India. After careful exploration, it is obvious that the caves represent all of these different elements. Perhaps the Marimba caves even represent what is seemingly impossible- both meaning and muddle. Their contradictory coexistence might be the real mystery of India, and of existence. , Works Cited Forester, E. M. A Passage to India.

Firstly I am going to explain what is work experience? Work experience is our opportunity to spend a period of time outside the classroom, learning about a particular job or area of work. During our placement, we’ll be able to find out what skills employers look for when they’re hiring someone to fill a job vacancy. We will also get the chance to develop our self-confidence and communication skills. This will help us to work better with other people in further or higher education, as well as in our future career.

When I were first told about work experience I thought to my self ‘great no school for two weeks’ I was looking forward to looking around places and trying to figure out what and where I wanted to do my work experience. I’ve always been good at doing things with computers. For my work experience placement, I was confused and could not decide on what to do. I was interested in doing everything from office work to computers, but I finally managed to find myself a placement in retail at T. K Maxx, Uxbridge.

My hours were 10am-5pm, Monday to Friday. It is about 45 minutes drive to the place however a bus does travel from near my house To get this placement, I personally went in, and asked if they would take me in. When I first went there I met Mark, whom I talked to, for it. After that all the official letters and forms were completed. I was over joyed; as this was the first shop I went to and got the placement. All my worries of getting the placement were over. The T. K Maxx that I normally frequent is a funny sort of place.

First of all, the entrance is tucked away in between two shops and is hardly noticeable. Second of all you have to go down a huge elevator down deep into the inner of the earth to get to the goodies inside. Lastly, it is, like most T. K Maxx stores, almost white inside. For a start, T. K Maxx promises brand name clothes at sky-high prices. It’s true that I’ve found my fair share of deal. I found a nice pair of K SWISS trainers and they often sell cartoon socks for i??4 a pair, compared to the i??2 you would pay for the same socks in Claire’s Accessories or somewhere similar.

They are usually selling a plethora of brand name jeans at very sky-high prices, too, so they are second to none when it comes to value for money. Most T. K Maxx stores are fairly expensive, with departments catering for women, men, kids and usually even home furnishings, toys, bags, purses etc. on sale. However, my one main complaint with T. K Maxx is its aim to be honest messy. Clothes tend to be arranged by size on racks, but you really have to break in through them to find what you’re looking for.

Also, often they’ll only have one item in a particular style on sale. The shoe section is probably the worst when it comes to mess. Both shoes in a pair are displayed on the racks and the theory is that you take the shoes, try them on, and take them up to the cashier if you want them, return them to the racks if you don’t. Unfortunately, the certain happen. People try shoes on, decide they don’t like them and leave them on the floor, so you usually find yourself stepping over huge piles of shoes to look at the racks yourself.

Don’t get me wrong, I understand that this can happen and it’s not easy to keep the place clean, but I’ve never seen staff picking up the shoes. Although it is a tedious task, making sure we pick up any shoes dropped on the floor and returning them to their shelf or place in the stock room is one of the top priorities. What’s more, toy boxes tend to be bashed, ornaments tend to be damaged and clothes can often be marked. The T. K Maxx Company started in America, and has now almost 2000 shops in the USA and Canada. They’ve only been in the UK for about 10 years but have 150 shops here already.

The staffs in T. K Maxx aren’t the type to walk around trying to butter you up into buying, which is nice as I like to browse on my own, but they aren’t the most helpful either, in my experience. I’ve only had to ask for assistance twice, but both times it took my ages to find a member of staff and when I did they were unclear and unhelpful. However, from my experience, the basement staffs are very friendly and chatty and they are free by free I meant to say working slowly, chatting a lot it is because they don’t have CCTV operating in basement.

I suppose that in a store as large as T. K Maxx, especially when it has a rather messy layout and displays are all over the place, it would be hard for them to keep on top of things and know exactly what’s on sale, so it’s not exactly their fault that they’re a bit unclear, but I think this is an issue the company should address. I often find that a lot of the clothes on sale in T. K Maxx are rather unpleasant, and some of the nicer stuff is still quite expensive and you’re not making a great saving, but they do always seem to have sale racks out, and you can sometimes come across a real deal through these.

All in all, T. K Maxx is a good store to browse in if you have the time, and you might just find a good deal here. However, it is definitely not the kind of place you could go into if you were in a hurry and wanted to pick up a jacket, top, trousers etc. quickly and then zoom out as you really do have to be prepared to list. It’s definitely worth a look, though, so if you ever go across one and have time to spare, pop in and see what you can spend your hard earned cash on.